心脏扩大的情况

 今天我感到左胸部从早上8点到现在晚上11点时有时轻微有时剧烈的疼痛，

我猜心脏扩大的情况正在恶化。

不确定我还能活多今天我感到左胸部从早上8点到现在晚上11点时有时轻微有时剧烈的疼痛，

我猜心脏扩大的情况正在恶化, 不确定我还能活多久。

血压仍然像往常一样高，大约在150-200左右，我想，药物已经不能再改善我的情况了，至少我感觉是这样。所以如果我很快就死了，希望有人能找到这个博客页面。久。血压仍然像往常一样高，大约在150-200左右，我想，药物已经不能再改善我的情况了，至少我感觉是这样。所 今天我感到左胸部从早上8点到现在晚上11点时有时轻微有时剧烈的疼痛，我猜心脏扩大的情况正在恶化。不确定我还能活多久。血压仍然像往常一样高，大约在150-200左右，我想，药物已经不能再改善我的情况了，至少我感觉是这样。所以如果我很快就死了，希望有人能找到这个博客页面。以如果我很快就死了，希望有人能找到这个博客页面。

抑郁症

 8th July 2021

这是第二次了。

开始觉得自己有抑郁症的现象了。

好好看着视频，会无缘无故的哭泣。感觉自己很委屈，无奈的委屈感。

有轻微的自杀念头。

我家人不知道~ 从不让陈爸爸担心我。

突然觉得自己好像有轻微的抑郁症

 28th June 2021

心痛

突然觉得自己好像有轻微的抑郁症（知道某某症状）

驾车时突然想到你每天都没法入眠 - 心痛因为感受到你的疲倦。很想很想帮你但不知道如何是好。

突然想起高中时自己有本写满诗的书本，弄丢了。心也痛。

痛到突然很想脱离联系方式。

痛到很想关手机，睡酒店。

这不就是抑郁症吗？

Casual night out (Brenda Thien)

I unable to express my pain that is still burning in my heart, so i came here to write something.

18th November 2018, this customer that u just met and have a talked.

19th November 2018, i can't believe that u can go have a drink with him. Deep down i trying not wanting to give a damn about that. I had no clue that how can you went out with someone stranger that u only chat a few hours then can go out and have a drink. Despite that, you only mentioned with me that u going out with "Telecommunication  guy". WHAT THE FUCK?! , i was worried and i texted you from 10pm till 2:54 a.m. and finally my sleep kick in. You freaking keep calling me at 3:05 a.m. for couple of times despite i rejected your call. I got work in the morning and yet u call and just wanna meet me, please if i do that u to i'm sure the next day you go bad mood about it too.

My heart still burning as i writing this. Every time argument happened and you never said sorry the next day, i said sorry after i do something wrong but you don't. Is like the word sorry is fucking hard for u to express until i asked for it.

This isn't fair to me, you can go out until 2-3am late night and i don't said a word about it. But if i go out until late night because i wanna play some mobile game with friend, you instantly showing that unhappy attitude in whatsapp. It happened couple of times already.

无法变回原来的自己

有时候我们明明原谅那个人,但却无法快乐起来。
那是因为,你忘记原谅自己。

我可能真的忘记原谅自己。

我不快乐。

命运就像强奸，
你反抗不了，
就要学习享受。

工作就像轮奸，
你不行了，
别人就上。

生活就像自慰，
什么都要靠自己双手。

学习就像叫鸡，
出钱又出力。

朋友就像内裤，
在你大起大落时都包含你。

好朋友就像避孕套，
时时都为你着想。

更好的朋友就像~伟哥~，
在你抬不起头时给你力量。

TIME MANAGEMENT

TIME MANAGEMENT

Something will master and something will serve. Either you run the day or the day runs you; either you run the business or the business runs you.

Learn how to separate the majors and the minors. A lot of people don’t do well simply because they major in minor things.

Don’t mistake movement for achievement. It’s easy to get faked out by being busy. The question is: Busy doing what?

Days are expensive. When you spend a day you have one less day to spend. So make sure you spend each one wisely.

Sometimes you need to stay in touch but be out of reach.

Time is our most valuable asset, yet we tend to waste it, kill it, and spend it rather than invest it.

We can no more afford to spend major time on minor things than we can to spend minor time on major things.

Time is more valuable than money. You can get more money, but you cannot get more time.

Never begin the day until it is finished on paper.

Learn how to say no. Don’t let your mouth overload your back.

Time is the best-kept secret of the rich.

(by Jim Rohn)